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So...

Some updates in my life...

• I went to the Nintendo Fusion Tour last Sunday with my friend Jen. It was awesome, even though I did get in trouble for it.
• I start working at EyeWonder next Monday.
  

1)Drew - United Skates
2)Nick-Nirvana
3)Emily- Cheer Up!
4)Lee- it's blank
5)Ashleigh- GUNS N ROSES @ THE WHISKY SAT. AUG23
6)Billy - Maryland Football Camp
7) Sarah-SIZE DOES MATTER
8> KaCi-- STA spartans.. 17.. boo.. fiorittos accounting and taxing
(*(9)*) Erica~ Diamond's Oregon Ohio
10) Tyler- Norwalk Soccer
11)Rachel- American Eagle Outfitters
12)Chappy - Afterhours Fabrication New Jersey 732-619-5293
13)Mike - Chicks want me 'cause mine drags on the ground
14)Gary- Drop Yours
15) S10KEV - Anti Flag
16)jason-injection is nice but i'd rather be blown
17)punx77-I am not wearing a shirt, it's just my tattoos.
18)Morgan - Quicksilver
19)B~randy-Security
20)Mikal - International Hurley
21) GREEN DAY!~~>(went to the concert and it was kick ass!)
22) -Geoff-"Putting the 'F' back in Freedom. Team America: World Police UNRATED...on DVD"
23) Shannon - In my white tee... YUP! (actually its my roomies T)
24) Chrystal - It's all good in the hood...
24) Cheryl--haven't worn one all day, but the last one i had on says "I gave my word to stop at third" :-D
25) Sara - Lock Haven Soccer Camp
26) Renee- O'Neill Surf Camp Instructor Santa Cruz California
27) Tamara~ DKNY JEANS *NewYork* (its pink)
28) Kate ~ Florida Gulf Coast University
29) Darcie ~ I'm Omnostic (hehehe.....luv u kate!)
30) Nats~ Overactive Imgagination lol yay
31) Life is simple. Eat. Sleep. Run.
32) David- Kappa Delta Oyster Fest
33) Meghan- Ariel's Under the Sea Ballet School :)
34) dan- pottry barn (just got hoem from work)
35) justine~everyone loves a catholic girl
36) scott - fort myers fire academy
37) amanda- "I Have Issues" -bart simpson
38) Katie- "I'm part of the problem"
39) Jacque- "LOVE MEANS NOTHING" - HAHAHA IT REALLY DOES!!!!!!!!!!!
40) Brian- HURLEY..
50) John - Wicked Wares - Save an Air Bag, Blow Me
51/ saturn- Godsmack!! YAY!
52)Chelsea-girls only want boyfriends who great skills (i so feel this way right now...shelby knows)
53) Aubrei~~~Got Crabs ha ha ha ha
54) MiChAeL>>>HoLlIsTeR((Of CoUrSe))
55) Robyn-Abercrombie! (Of course)
56)Megan- Cute when Moody
57) Jeremy----- HILL KELLY DODGE----- ( what i just got home from work)
58) Lauren- Eat Sleep RIDE
59) sarah - kgb controls :)
60) tim - nothing, i have no shirt on...WOOHOO!!!! playin skins
61) Ryan-Lightning Bolt: Extreme Athelete
62) Caroline- "don't bother me, I'm dancing!"
63/ becca- Harding Bisons
64) joshua - strike anywhere
65) Jordan- The Black Dahlia Murder
66] METALLICA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
67) Fall out boy- drop it like its hot
68) Dean - Big L
69)*Ian - DYKE (i wrote over the nike bit)
70) Glen-Discharge Tshirt,Dropkick Murphys Boston PunkRock Hoody
71) dj ANGEL - Gay i'm not even happy
72) Anni3- 'Dope'
73) TEH - the devil's rejects
74) A & F 92
75. Vanessa- I ?? Pee Wee Herman
76. chris - thundercat logo
77) brittany-im so emo my wrist cut themself yeah with a bleeding heart
78) Shelby- my shit says SHADY biatch
79)James-Insane Clown Posse motherfuckas
80)Derick-Insane Clown Posse
81) Amanda- i fucked your boyfriend last night
820 Mandah- this game is gay
83)*StAr_DuSt*-hard nipples..cause im nakie lol
84)KrZyJuGgALo- Fat People Are Harder To Kidnapp.
85.) DJ- IF I HAD A GUN FOR EVERY ONE WHO DONT LIKE MY POINT OF VIEW EVERY BODY N THIS WORLD WOULD BE DEAD !
86. Chancy- SENIORS 2006
87.) SASHA---->>> leave it to me to be nakie
88) Bree - Multiple orgasm donor
89) Scott - HEY BREE THATS MY F'N SHIRT! :) mine sadly says "Two Men and a Truck" REPRESENT!
90) Kat - Biker Week 99
91) Anna~ Half naughty, half nice
92) Justin - Imperial Domination

I believe things between me and her are getting better. I pray so at least.
Well, got a portfolio to finish. Haygood out.

God, I hate myself!
So, the one chance I had to be happy in 4 years, and I blow it! Better yet, I don't even know I did to blow it, or even how to fix it, except to sit here, heartbroken, crying my lungs out, and waiting. All because I can't control how excited I get over some things is the best of my guess. God, I hate myself! Why does this hurt so God damn much? Can anyone tell me? I feel like jumping off the next nearest bridge, but I'm not, because I'm stronger than that. I have to be strong, to show the world I'm not some fuck up little accicent caused by a drunken high teenage whore and an opportunistic teenage guy 18 fucking years ago, to show the person I love more than anyone else that I may not be perfect, but I'm still perfectly capable of trying my best and to love. Why do I always have to mess things up? WHY!? Can someone tell me what the hell is wrong with me? I don't even know what's wrong with me!!! How can I change if I don't know what causes me to always screw up! She always tells me that I should give up, find someone else. Maybe I don't want to, just maybe she is the only person who makes me happy. I've already accepted the fact that I can't be what she needs, or what she wants, but I at least want to try for a while. So, I was going to spend the weekend with her, and I got to excited, like I always do, then she claims I'm obsessed, and she doesn't want to talk to me saying she has to much on her. Well, I have to much on me to, but I'd rather try to help her than try to fix my own problems. Why do I always set myself up to be hurt? Why can't people believe me? And more than anything, why does everything I do innocently and without thinking always get twisted and turned into something bad that ends up causing everyone so much pain? I don't want to hurt people, especially her. Yet I always end up hurting her and thus myself, and I don't even know what I did that caused it.

Well, it's raining quite heavily here in beautiful Marietta, GA. I had to stop by the SPSU bookstore earlier to buy an umbrella to use just to walk around campus without getting soaked, which I did before I bought the umbrella.
Well, I'm out for a while. Need to *cough* study for a Computer Science exam in 50 minutes or so. Feel glad to distract me if you read this often (like anyone does anyway)

Been a while since I posted, but felt like I'd give a rundown of my day

1. Woke up
2. Went to Dollar General to buy stuff for my mom
3. Went to Save-A-Lot and bought cig's for my mom's friend Wanda (hey, I am old enough to buy them even though I am smart enough to not smoke them)
4. Went to Sam's Club
5. Went to my grandpa's
6. Ate at Ci Ci's Pizza... had to be at least 20 of us there
7. Came back home
8. Sitting here waiting...
   

Jason Sleeping...

Dwidnel Sleeping..

Don't you just love blackmail?